i not come here since ... MONTHS!


I look at my inbox to see .... 1800 SUBISSION!!! O____O

i cannot look at all those, I am sorry!!

i have been in college for some time now! very very busy! no time for drawing so much but i missed it and drew something cute. been finding friends who are into same hobbies as me including animes ... haha ...

AND ... i was always sure I was the only french/asian person in the world but this is not true. O__O ... I meet a girl here who is also french/asian but she not japanese but chinese ... lol. we are in writing together so we talk durring that time though i don't think we are official friends so far but ... we do have things in common besides ethnicity xDDD well ... kind of yeah ... lol

i miss my boyfriend too ... ;-; ... he is coming to visit in a while though but closest family here is two hour drive! x.x;;;; but lucky he has a place to stay because he has no money, lol ....


okay i need to get back to this report ... why do they give you work to do when you are supposed to be enjoying freetime!?!?! >__<

x___x ;;


i want to draw, but i feel very exausted.. i am away from the internet again ..... for maybe ... weeks ... and i come back and my inboxes are FULL FULL FULL!!

i come here and it is the same... over 300 arts to look at from people ..... i try to look and comment on most but i am really tired .. been very exausted like I said ... been busy


but i am having fun though .... been spending lots of time with friends mostly. ^^ and i am surprised to say this but i think there is a guy that i LIKE HAHA. me liking a GUY .... guys have always been trouble for me but this one is very responsible and understands the importance of STUDY. O___O BIG PLUS. he has been tutoring me in english too so this is also good. ^^

but i dont think i am ready to date again yet ... even though i think he is really nice. but maybe i should say something while he is still single???? O/////O;;;; LOL ...



okay i hope everyone is not mad at me. ;w; i promise to draw more ..... love you all

hello everyone!!!

i hate that most of my entries are the same of hey sorry i am not around much!! my friends keep me busy along with my studies and more family crisis >_<!! at least noone is staying at our home again but my mother and i are spending lots of time at relatives homes ... -____- very boring and very stressful its really nothing serious so dont worry ... i just hope i never end up stupid like my aunt ... or my mother for that matter but if she were not stupid i would not be here XD

ahhhh dont get me wrong i love my father too but i wish i had parents who were in love not just something that happened on a whim and then i came to be O_o ...... its bad enough my whole family is split up in two countries ;w; well i do have some relative in the america to on my father's side (so i guess that make three???)... his sisters ... only one i met when i was really little so i hardly remember o___o

i think my english is geting better? XD Haha much easier than japanese is going to be .____. father says i might not be able to live with him and go to school there .... although from what i hear english is pretty common ...

.... and his french speak isnt really good ... XDD he says he got rusty after a long time ...... hahahaha ... but for the while we talk to eachother in english when he calls .. XP

.. but he's better in english than me .... AND HIS NATIVE LANGUEGE IS ONE I DONT EVEN UNDERSTAND >_<


ahh yes lots of complications in my family, yes?


okay but i try to find more time for draws since i miss to draw in the computer ..... even if my pencil draws are better ... i think my friend may let me borrow a scanner at her house and i could scan some things!!!! >w<!!!

love to all my friends!!!

so it was my friend elsas birthday and she have a party .... she have so many friends and relative!!! X___x it was very expensive looking and was in a hotel ..... but it was lots of fun ^^ and so much good food ....... but still very noisy .... and too many annoying boys!!!

they keep coming to me ... one asks if i think perverted because i look asian >__<!!!! VERY STUPID AND HUGE IDIOT YOU ARE!! he thinks i draw the ecchi because i had my sketchbook but i dont >____> ... just one girl who was in the nude but tasteful and nothing is to be seen because her hair cover ... i wish i could scan my sketchs they are SOOOOOOO much better than computer

but most boys seem to court me and it is awkward and embarrasing to me ;w; ..... i do date, just i dont seem to tollerate boys so well my last two boyfriends were too demandnig and clingy and always want to call when i am busy doing schoolwork >___< i need a boy who can understand that .... i really should not date until i finish schooling .... i want to go to college in japan so i can spend some time with my father .___. but i dont even know japanese too well ....


but still for now i am too busy all the time to draw on computer but i never will forget my friends here i always look at your art and read your journal but i dont have time to comment a lot right now so please understand

it was not expected of me to make such a dissapearence for a long time! x_x

just i have been very busy lately with studies and trying to be more social with friends and family. had some family stay with us for some time unexpectedly for reasons i cannot say but everything is well with them, now. they also use the computer A LOT!! @__@;;

i am happy to know that my father will be visiting me for a couple days next week!!1 ^^!! that means more apollo choco and more good snacks!! xDD! i am surprised he get me those kind of things but nothing relating to anime or mangas .. well .. they are nice too .. and so are kimono *__* just unfortunate that i cannot wear them properly .. they are hard to put on and my mother would not know how to help me .. x__X;; my grandmother and aunts on my father side would but theyre in japan and i am all the way here ... ;-; i only seen them twice in my life .. it is quite sad ..

but father said in time i will see them again too .. i finish school .. i wish things were different .. i suppose if you must know my mother and father are not married and they dont really have any involvement with the other >>;; so it makes it difficult right there .. but having family in both japan and france makes it more hard to see all your family ... ;w;


well .. i promise to have more arts soon .. thank you my friends for understanding ^^